it seems like all i have been doing is waiting. its hard knowing that im doing everything i can to make things work yet i feel like my effort isnt making an effect on anyone. sometimes i get confused and think to myself is it worth still chasing something i know might not happen?! im not asking for a lot, just answers. im not sure what i can really do to make myself not think this way. ive been feeling this way for weeks now, and nothing has changed. i know this is a challenge i must overcome to better myself. question is, “do i really need this?!” i always ask myself this question when ever i come across a problem in my life. and i always give myself an answer right away, most of the time im right and sometimes i could be wrong. i have no problem admitting that im wrong, but i guess some people just are not the same. i know people are stubborn and have so much pride that they just cant be wrong at all and they always or most of the time have to be right. so i give them the time they need to think every thing over after i said what i needed to say, and just sit here and wait for something to happen like always. i usually get over things easily when i know its not worth it, but when it just feels like its something worth going after then i just go for it. sometimes i feel like maybe, i should give up but then i say to myself “you havent given it your all yet.” and when i have given it my all and yet nothing has happened, then maybe its time to let go, move on, and just be happy. and even though i tried every thing i can to make it work and it doesnt, i should be glad that i did my best. its not my loss, its theirs. im always going to miss a few things here and there, but all i have to do is just take a moment and look back and reminisce about all the good times. and when that moment is done, i can say it was a good ride and just go on with my life.